Hard day

Well I have just about made it through my day. It was 10 years ago today my world got turned upside down. I was woken up by the phone ringing and my mom on the other end telling me my daddy was gone. I couldn't run over and hug her she was several states away. After her and I talked and I hung up crying and my husband holding me. My brother calling me and together we cried. With the comfort he was no longer in pain and no more illness. Dave flew out to bring my mom home and I stayed to start with arrangements and what seems to be a million phone calls. Telling my children that their grandfather was no longer with us is hands down the toughest thing I faced in my life.  The kids will never come home smelling like his cologne. I have to keep reminding myself that daddy is up in heaven fishing with Jesus.
Oh how he loved to fish. My 16th birthday he bought me a fishing pole and reel. I didnt think much of that gift but boy I sure wish I had it today.

My life lessons and the person I became is in part of my father. He was a gentle soul that everyone seemed to love. He would be one of my first calls when I needed advise.

Now as I reflect on all the things that I have achieved over the last 10 years. I have raised two great kids starting to back in the workforce and doing well in my job. I have a strong marriage to a man I love with every ounce of my being. I believe all my heart daddy would be so proud of the person I have have become and my life I have built with my husband and kids.  My mom always said I would marry someone like my father, which put a very high bar and I think I have achieved that.

Miss you a bunch Daddy! I know there will be a day I will see you again and feel your arms around me and smell your cologne.